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This is about the situation in which we find ourselves: in a world built from language, on the scaffolding of the earth; in a body, that finds itself paired with a mind incessantly performing the impossible task of narrating to itself in order to make sense of itself and its situation; and in relationship, in the position of needing to be oneself in a way that allows others also to be. The song tries to take the form of being what it calls for - it is simultaneously a story and a real and irreducible object about which many stories could be told. All of this is one such story, which I do not see as being a privileged one. What is your story, and how does it open up the world for you and for others?
lyrics
Begins with a need, a prayer for deliverance
“An attempt to get out without knowing where to go”
“It’s not a lack,” a hole to be filled in
It is the aching “of being held fast”
If I could “[give] back to things, their toy-like uselessness”
Unhand the world, to the song of a child afraid of the dark
But we’re in the game
So we play by the rules
The ones we were born to
And we tell the truth
And we make ourselves here
In this conversation
And “we pay the price”
And live by its reason
Now I’m falling down a well, always already
Teach me to speak, lay a world out for me
The souls that it gives us, lay hold of our bodies
In it we'll hide, “[our] sheer visibility […]”
Our nakedness, in fullness, solidity”
“[Clinging] fiercely […] to the threshold of future”
Remake the world we already picture
But is this the way?
Double down on my story
If I need it this much,
Where does that put me?
Do I just give in and be a
A prop in your play
And can I believe when you say what I
You want me to say?
And now you disturb me,
And you shake my foundation
“You are my anguish, surely,
You are opaque [to me],
[And] who is this you
That resides in me?”
The one I can’t shake,
My alterity
But now while I am open
If I can stop and listen
“[Our] body is a being of
two leaves” .
“Less a color or a thing,
But the difference between”
Where I can take my place
Even as I bend
An enfolding doesn’t hide
And a hiding that gives way
“Illuminates all flesh
Not [just] my own”
And if we’re all of woman born
We can find our wild state
Un-fear of the inside of the fruit
“First music from first voice of love
It fills your breast with an urge
To come to language
Launches [you with] force”
“Shot through with streams of song”
In the rhythm that laughs you [along]”
“Which beats between the going out […]
And returning”
Because “this is how she arrives,
Vibrant, over and again”
We’re forever here
At the beginning
credits
released January 4, 2018
Works Cited:
Butler, Judith P. Giving an account of oneself. New York: Fordham University Press, 2005.
Cixous, Helene. Extreme Fidelity.1988.
Cixous, Helene. The laugh of the medusa. Translated by Keith and Paula Cohen. Signs, Vol. 1, No. 4. (Summer, 1976), pp. 875-893.
Deleuze, Gilles, and Félix Guattari. A thousand plateaus: capitalism and schizophrenia. Translated by Brian Massumi. University of Minnesota Press, 2011. 311.
Foucault, Michel. Discipline and punish: the birth of the prison. Translated by Alan Sheridan. New York: Vintage Books, 1995.
Irirgary, Luce. Democracy begins with two. 2000.
Lévinas, Emmanuel. Alterity and transcendence. Translated by Michael B. Smith. New York: Columbia University Press, 1999.
Lévinas, Emmanuel. On escape. Stanford, CA: Stanford University Press, 2003.
Merleau-Ponty, Maurice. The visible and the invisible. Translated by Alphonso Lingis. Northwestern University Press. 1968.
For more detailed citations, email me: nddyck@gmail.com
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